Intuition is a poor processor of energy when it is influenced by fear, love and outside forces bent on controlling it’s ability to process thought in a personally meaningful way. The point to the Dragonfire way is to block out these influences by utilizing forms of mental discipline. Martial arts has used these philosophies and ideologies for thousands of years. The purpose to this teaching method is to understand the process without the use of physical movement, and utilize the resources of the mind to replace the need for violent confrontations.

Incidentally I had not been asked to go to the new plant – so I chose to find a new path.

Incidental to Oct, 2009. Last May 2009 I took a buyout from the old Manufacturing center and taken a job in sales at a local department store. For four months I mulled over what to do next, and decided to try becoming a sales representative. Applying for these jobs was not an easy task, as it would push me into a new direction. I did land a premium job though. Now I have that opportunity to meet, greet and help people that I was looking for. It’s a small step forward, and will lead to greater things down the road.

My story

Before I begin - there must be a clarification made about my shamanist claims. Until about 3 years ago I was unaware of my childhood illness. I found a copy of an old medical certificate in my Baby album that my parents had kept for me. When I asked about it they did indeed confirm that I had become ill with an unknown sickness the age of four years. The doctors could find no reason for my illness, and it nearly did take my life. My body was immersed in cool water until the fever broke. Personally I believe that is was the immersing my body in the water that caused the illness to break, as a sort of washing away of old worldly influences. Voices began to speak within my mind shortly after, and have dreamed about animals, demons, Gods, and Goddesses ever since I can remember. There is another thing that has a consistency. My mother said to me that my life carried the weight of the world upon it's shoulders, as if there was a greater purpose for it.

In Vancouver back in 1980 I learned from a Hawaiian shaman for 18 months about the ways of the Warrior, Citizen and Teacher. She began a process of learning that brought me to a Toronto born parapsychologist. As my learning continued I began to realize that my other personalities were of my own creation, that they were a division of mental processing known to parapsychologists intersected astral entities. I continued to learn as much about dark and occult religious practices, and soon turned to Satanism. This did not work well for me, so up until 2 years ago I played with different aspects of the light based religions, including spiritual BDSM, Kundalini, Buddhism, and adjective New age. My shamanism was almost forgotten, displaced by the rigors of a job and family, life in general. But this was likely to change.

About two years ago I began to run into ambient disassociation again, my DID(Dissociative Identity Disorder) becoming an issue. Personally disassociations of this sort have never been a mental issue, but rather a spiritual one. Introductions were made, and I was brought before an old native woman and told that there would be something to accept as payment for her sorting out my Girls (“Girls” - indicating my ambient life forms)

From her I learned that sharing ideas is what creates discussion, and controversy. Controversy is the road to discussion, Discussion paves the way for learning, and learning is the beginning of knowledge. That is when decisions are made and things happen. Knowledge is power. Here I was, incredibly. Once again learning from a real Shaman.

Firstly, she was not informed of my coming, nor could she have known about my multiple personalities, although experienced intuition plays a big part in knowing why someone has come before them. She called out that each entity would give her a name and designation, so she would know who and what she was dealing with. All 11 girls called out their names to her and all were in agreement that something had to be done to sort out the continued disassociations. (Include Goddess, Librarian, and administrative assistant, plus the other 8).

To make a long story short the shaman taught my girls teamwork, and that it is better to look the other way from animosity than try to chop off it’s head. In other words, to see what was needed to create a place of peace between then, and all of their anger and despair no longer had a place within their vessel. It was decided that this body was a vessel, like a ship sailing on the ocean(much to Kiara’s Delight), and that Kelli(myself) would be the captain and the rest of the girls the crew. This scenario did but stick however, and given our common office experience and administrative work throughout past lives lived it was decided that we would work as an office center, in a job situation. A house was constituted in a small community, in which the girls would shop, live, cook, and clean for themselves. Although much of this had been accomplished it was the old shaman that completed the task of organizing the office, and family team, the girls were to run my ,m9ind like a household, such as well as like a smoothly operating business.

In return a ritual was performed in which through spiritual means I was given her shamanistic knowledge and experience. This was a great honour. My life has not been the same since. Intuitive levels have begun to increase, and I live more through a process of intuitive thought than pre-planned action. I am calmer, and we have developed a new system for distribution of personal energy that is much more cyclical in it’s nature, based upon the native spirit wheel.

As for my new job the team I’m working with is dedicated to customer consideration, and respect towards one another is a must. Loyalty and honour towards the company that keeps us, and towards the customers that pay our wages. Goddess has blessed and will see my forward progress to the end. I am so fortunate to be a part of this new team of people.

We can actually live in a perfect world if we make the effort to create it.

As you search to find your way, may your path be filled with fortune.

As for me – My path is set.

Shamanism is something that I still have trouble accepting. It is easier to believe it of someone else, yet this did this happen to me for a reason. The only questions I still have to answer within myself are - Can one man make a difference? Am I that man?